Running a half marathon gives you lots of time to think. While I was in the woods yesterday for my first (and last) half marathon, my mind wandered from thought to thought trying to think about anything except running and the pain in my legs. I put focus on the feet of the person in front of me and put my body on automatic. I thought about my friends, family, work, hopes, plans and my young son waiting for me at the finish line.
I learned early in life that doing things solely based on the expectations of others is dangerous. If I had ignored my own voice, I would never dared to do anything that scared me. I would never moved overseas, climbed a mountain, run a race, jumped out of a plane, adopted a child on my own, etc. These are dangerous things, but the exhilaration you feel once you face your fears is life changing. These experiences taught me volumes about myself. I am stronger than I ever imagined. Besides life is too fleeting not to take chances and experience something that scares you.
So there I was running through the woods yesterday thinking about how I can't wait for my son to learn this lesson. I hope to encourage him to challenge himself and do something outside of his comfort zone. That thought was both exciting and scary. As a mom, I will soon have to face those events in my son's life that scares ME to death. Someone's going to break his heart. He could do something that would cause him physical harm. Life is not always going to be fair to him and there is nothing I can do to keep it from happening.
Doing something scary is about to turn a whole new corner for me.