I haven't been away from my son in over two years. I am the main person who picks him up, feeds him, bathes him and puts him to bed at night. His rituals deeply influence my rituals. If I have trouble sleeping, it typically because he had trouble sleeping.
I mention this since this week, I am actually going away for several days and not doing these things for the first time in two years. People without children don't realize how engrossing being a parent of a young child is. It's a level of exhaustion that is hard to understand without living this life day to day. I need this time to reset myself both physically and emotionally.
I am both excited yet nervous. Yes, I will get to sleep without interruption. I may even get to eat a meal from beginning to end without stopping to do something for someone. Yet, I will worry since that is my go-to response. But he is four now and can articulate clearly what he wants.
This will be good for us.